REALNESS.
You know, I really want this site to be fun and happy so I’ve held some things back. But by holding back, I realize that I am also not living up to my obligation of being honest and real about this wedding planning process. This site after all is supposed to be “All Angles, All Real, All Gay.” Therefore, I give you REAL.
Planning this wedding is stressing me the fuck out!!! Almost, at times, to the point of being a complete nightmare. I’m stressed over the clothing for the wedding party, for myself, for Tom. I’m stressed over the the invitations and getting them completed in time. I’m stressed over the guest list and who we could and couldn’t invite and the grudges that will cause. I’m stressed out about surprise engagement parties. I’m stressed about the ever growing budget, which has already grown to way more than we wanted to spend! I’m stressed about asking my friends and family to spend so much of their hard earned money during one of the worst economic times in history to come to my wedding. I’m stressed over finding the perfect photographer and finding the perfect song for our first dance. I’m stressed over the possibility of rain. I’m stressed out about accommodations for guests, and flowers for the ceremony, and wedding favors for everyone, and the registry, and where we are going to put gifts if people actually do buy us anything. I’m stressed about how people will take this blog. I’M STRESSED OUT! And since I’m being honest here, I have to say that at times, I even question if it’s really worth it! To be perfectly honest, if I had to answer this question right now, at this very moment, I’d say Hell No!
I completely understand why people elope…. or just don’t get married at all.
Brian
The Bridegroom